Journey

I have come a long way

to a distant place far far away

from where i used to live

and from what i used to do

Life is a rosy dream

happiness and joy aplenty

everything that i wanted and

everything is as i had hoped for

Everything is as i had hoped for

everything is as i had longed for

everything is except for the turmoil

that plagues me inside every day

I sleep, i smile, i laugh, i play, i eat and i live

in a constant state of fear

a fear that i did not ask for

and one that i did not longed for

killing me from inside

silently screaming for it to stop

i am devoured by my own inner self

day in and day out

haunting and taunting me

time and time again

they run helter and skelter

in the deep recess of my mind

it’s just a state of mind

i tell myself

hoping to erase these thoughts

of fear that hinges on the edge of my happiness

Trapped inside my own mind

eclipsed by my fear

tears weep without a choice

hoping to vanquish (flood) this struggle within.